她是我转校后第一个好朋友。她活泼开朗，是个人见人爱的乐天派。她感染了我，继而改变了我的生活。
地球依然持续自转着，而变化，也从来没停止过。是因为距离？还是本身的问题？还是其实什么都没有，使我自己多心了呢？
仿佛，无话不聊仿佛已成为历史。相遇时，在热情的打招呼以后就什么也没了。对于自己的木讷很是懊恼。怎么面对她，我竟然不知道要说些什么？
跑去问了好几个朋友该怎么做才好，每个都给我不一样的答案。
“有时候太常黏在一起也会腻的，这是正常现象。”诒的回答。
“不妨坦白些，问她会不会觉得你们之间除了什么问题，然后一起找答案。”尤湄的建议。我鼠胆不敢试。
“传简讯给她，简单地问候一句‘嘿，最近好不好？’。” 嗯... 试过了，也尝试找话题聊了，可是她的回复都很保留。
什么时候开始，她再也不像以往那么快乐，明明一脸心事重重却倔强地什么也不肯说，只强颜笑着说“我很好”。
耀叫我试着给她一些空间，不要让关心成为她的负担。可我很久，很久，很久没有和她说话了。
之前好几个朋友对我说，我朋友太多了，要找我聊天的时候我总是在别人身边。她，是不是也这么觉得？可她不是一个寂寞的人，身边不法知心朋友。嗯... 猜不透。
其实我看着她抱怨自己胖的时候心里多么懊恼，她明明一点都不胖；其实我第一次，也是唯一一次为友情吃醋是因为她。因为自己没有办法劝得动她吃东西，而别人可以。
这一篇的内容跳来跳去的，请见谅。我也不晓得该如何整理这些混乱的字句，还有我混乱的心。
其实，我依然很重视她这个朋友。
I don't expect friendship forever. Though, I don't treat friendship as nothing either.
When I first transferred, I met this girl who changed my entire life. She is (or was) a happy-go-lucky person. She's adorable, cheerful, and everyone likes her. She is someone whom I known as best friend.
We used to be really close. But as time goes by, things changed. We're no longer so close as we used to be. We don't talk to each other that often and worse comes to worse it seems we have nothing to talk about.
I asked my friends what I should do and these are the answers I got:
1. "It sometimes happens to me and one of my close friend too, nevermind la, this usually happens among friends so get used to it." Hmm... okay?
2. "What about trying to approach her and to her about the problem among both of you?" Gawd, this is so awkwardly awkward ._.
3. "Text her, and ask her how is life." Well I did, but the way she replies is unlike last time. It's like, she's so far far away. Indescribable.
And I realised, nowadays she is not as cheerful as before. Instead, she looks upset. And yet she always keeps a smile and say "I'm okay, I'm just tired."
A friend told me to give her space, telling me she needs privacy sometimes, and over-concerned will make her feel uneasy. Well I understand, but we haven't been talking for quite a long time.
Iseriouslydon'tknowhowandwhyandhowandwhaiii ._____.
Some friends said I have too many friends, and it's hard to spend time with me sometimes because I'm usually unavailable. Will she have the same opinion too? But she is not a lonely person either, she's outgoing and she has friends everywhere.
Honestly I feel really ugh when she complained that she's fat and carrying on her diet. For goodness sake, darling, you're not fat at all! There was once, which is the first time ever, I felt a bit jealous to friendship matters, that's when she had gastric but still refused to eat.
Sorry for this unorganized post. My mind is confused, I've no idea how to rearrange my words.
I have to admit, that she's important to me.
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