完美主义，是祸还是福?

后天就要展现练习成果了，可是我完全没有把握...
刚刚练习的时候，那些该表达出来的感觉全都跑不见了。声音，嗯，咬字清晰力度十足；动作，嗯，还算一致。
败就败在我们的情感表达...
队友有事，没办法继续练习，只能匆忙练过两三次就散会。我还以为今天可以把全部东西补回来。
本来想明天大概练过就行了，不过按照如今的情况显示，不行，还得练。

团队练习，最需要的就是时间；最忌讳的，就是没时间。偏偏有时候，彼此的时间配合不到，就这样白白地让上课之的那段黄金时间溜掉了。我相信时间是可以创造的。欣慰的事，大家愿意牺牲下课休息的20分钟，一起排练。积少成多，我们的一天一点渐渐地的累积出成果。赛事将近，我们也不得不缺课练习。

我的原则是这样，要做，就要发挥到满点；更何况，我们是做得到的。

我能如此肯定，因为我们的确做到了，曾经。
但在那次之后的几次的表现，也就是最近这几天，总让我觉得 alang-alang 的，就像上高音的时候，就差那半个音调上不去。就这样一直停滞不前，再也达不到那个点...

我一直在想，要怎样把当时的感觉找回来？每每想到这里，我的思绪就会飘到以前，和舒诒紫铃一起练诗歌朗诵的时候。
那时候... 那时候... 感觉上我们都是乱来的。记得当时大家很努力地把表情神韵做得很夸张，很莫名的我们成了比赛的第二名。（想想也许是当初竞争力没那么强吧）

只剩下最后一天，我还有很多，很多东西要跟他们讲。
我想要和大家找回那个点，我希望我们能够达到那个点!
我没有妄想过冠军，我只想要尽善尽美。有时会因此认为，自己的执著近乎病态。“尽力而为”之类的话我听了也不怎么进得去。

就剩下明天了......


~Too Perfectionist?~
The day after tomorrow we're going to stand on the stage and perform; yet, I have no confidence in our presentation... While we were practising in Belle's house just now, I realised that our voice, movement were alright, but not our expression. We were unable to continue our practice as one our teammate has some matter to deal with, so we only can practise for two three times.

I actually wanted to have light practice tomorrow, but seems that our situation now wouldn't allow us to do so.

Way before the competition we had been squeezing out some time just for the practice. Every recess, and sometimes during lessons. Transport problem caused us have no choice but to give up on the hours before lesson starts and also weekends.

If I want to do something, I'll manage to make it. Moreover, we're almost there, yes, we're almost there! We actually had reached that point. However, it's only once, and after that we can't manage to find the feeling again. We're stuck now...

That's why I persist to reach that point, because I know we can. We did it once!

What should I do? How should I tell them, in order to find the feeling back again?

Yes, I want perfection, though I know nothing is perfect. I understand we won't necessarily be the champion. Well, teachers also told us that we only have to put our best effort on our stage performance. Still, to be honest I don't think doing one's best is enough, I hope everyone of us is in full gear. I want us to reach that point once again! I really hope we can reach that!

And tomorrow will be the last day...